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    • exactly what it sounds like; i will be rambling in here. ALSO!!! any post on the main page: current art/status will also be posted on here!! disorganized, i know T-T

    CRINGE WARNING!!! leave now or forever be haunted

    i consider myself to be a beginner artist despite the fact that ive been drawing for 4 years(or 5, considering the new year). is that weird? I dont FEEL like a, total full blown artist yet though 0_0. not like, super skilled yet!!

    anyways,this is my newest sketch/wip. im kind of proud of it!! though it strayed a bit from the vision i still like it! I think ill probably color it soon.

    (uploaded jan 1st 2025)

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    (ramble of jan 4 2025)i was experimenting with makeup today!! i see all these cool makeup designs on pinterest and its so cool omg,, i really like colorful makeup, with the eyeshadows and stuff. typically i dont wear makeup be it school or otherwise, mostly because i get too nervous/self concious about it lmaoT_T... but awhile ago i asked my mom for some makeup at walgreens!! she ended up buying me some colorful eyeshadows, mascara, blush, and lipstick!! so i was really happy about that!! even if i havent been wearing it much. anyways i really like how my makeup turned out today!! i think i might start wearing it out more often!!

    DONTCALLMECRINGE T-T i still get nervous abt putting my face on the internet,, so i typically try to minimize it!! but rn i felt kinda pretty and im really like have a website and the idea of blogging stuff! so uhh

    ALSO!!! i got this ochako figure for christmas and i love her so much!!!! she is SO cute,, before buying her she was like my dream figure. shes like 55 dollars, which is kinda crazy..0_0 BUT WHATEVER I LOVE HER!!! i just wish she was bigger thouughg ;,( i have a toga figure too and shes like a bit bigger than ochako, and dont get me wrong they are both SO cute but ughh i wish they were the sameish size so i could pose them next to eachother,,, i also realy want the matching tgck figures; the break time figures i think?? WHERE THRYR BOTH SITTING!! AGHJKL ITS SO CUTE... i wish!! i also got a 30 dollar amazon gift card for christmas, and dont get me wrong IM SO HAPPY!! i love it, but AHHH it isnt enough to buy them both.. I WANT ALL OF THEM!!!! like i wanna make a whole shrine and everything.. speaking of which i also want a shelf!! i have some shelves, but it is under my sisters bunk next to my bed and i cant really display anything there yknow?? i feel like im just overly complaing BUT WHATEVR!!! o-o i want a big bookshelf where i can make cool little shrines and display stuff... sigh. ONE DAY!!!

    also so unrelated but im turning 15 in 3 months!!!! :D im excited!! though whats bugging me is whether or not to have a party,, throughout middleschool i mostly didnt have like, any close friends (most due to general social awkwardness and weirdness) i just couldnt find others who had common intrests with me, and those who i DID want to be friends with, i was to shy to approach T-T.. i reaally regret not doing so!! so i ended up mostly alone throughout middleschool, not that it sucked or anything!! i was just reading fanfic by myself every break i got at school and it was HEAVENLY. i spent a solid 2 months of the school year binging this fic(hero's shadow by feelingstabby) (ITS SO GOOD,almost 900k words..) and i had the BEST time. it was so great that i eventually became hestitant to even TRY having friends. like yeah being lonely at times sucked but also,, having to constantly interact with others? no social breaks? no fanfic reading time? it sounded like more trouble(HELL) than it was worth 0_0. this year started off mostly the same as middleschool, and i was cool with that!! but then, after a taking a week long trip with my grade, I found myself a friend group!! and they are SO awesome. like we ended up sitting on the same bus by coincidence (the school had us take several mini-buses) and we found ourselves talking!! they have similar intrests to me, and theyre funny!! theyre so nice and understanding and un-judgemental,, omgg i love them. one time, we even discussed omegaverse. OMEGVERSE. something i thought id NEVER talk about outside of the internet. it was an extremely funny convo.

    OKAY I GOT SIDETRACKED BUT I SWEAR IT COMES BACK TO THE PARTY DILEMA. so basically, ive never really had a party of any sort up until this point. didnt attend many parties, or socail stuff in general. never even hung out with someone outside of school before this year of highschool. but this year would be my quince, and you only really have it once?? plus if i have to be honest i just really want extra presents(and get to wear a pretty dress). but the thing is, my friend group only consists of 5 people including me. and we all kind of dont have many if any friends outside of the friend group. and i dont want to invite people i dont know too well!! like, itd be awkward!! plus if i did have the party, id want it to be 10 people attending MAX. but if i only invite 4 people, would that even be a party? and i know it isnt really that big of a deal, and im kind of over dramatizing the whole thing, but still!!! plus what if one of them cancels? that would be THREE people attending the party.. like what am i supposed to do?? invite randos? and if i do, who'll they hangout with during the party? it wouldnt be fun for them!! i dunno, ill figure it out eventually. speaking of, godd i really dont want to go back to school.. i still have to finish like this big writing assignment and i have three days.. UGIJHIJHUI I HATE SCHOOL!!!!! anyways.. enough complaing for today!! cutiemccookies OUT!! :3 (ramble of jan 4 2025 end)